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This is it people. 8:44 pm here in Jakarta on January 1st 2016. Almost a year since my last post. I'm now enjoying my time with Scandal season 5 episode 4 rerun on TV playing Cyrus Beene blackmailing The President and asking for his old job as Chief of Staff.
I'm going to tell you a bit of my 2015 that passed quite fast if I look back. Seriously. I felt like it was yesterday that Le Bf asked me to join him for dinner at Hanamasa because it was just the two of us in Bandung and all his relative were already home in Sumatra and now I live in different city away from him.
I find the photo above is an apt option to the situation I have. Many ups and down in 2015 and I'm not joking when I say MANY. one of the up is I finally graduated from Uni. Yeaaay, that's why I left Bandung already (that's probably the down side as the city has already grown in me). a part of my thesis was submitted to a conference and I took best paper award for political theme for that. I may need to collect points and start making more paper if one day I decided to have Professor title in front of my name. I went home to my folks three times last year, for my cousins wedding twice and Eid Al-Fitr once. I managed to get a job while chatting over coffee twice and there's a chance (a big one) I will take it. I sent a fellowship application right before midnight last night and fingers cross I can get it.
Move on to the down side. I mention about moving out of Bandung earlier. I got into sticky situation with some people I truly respected (I was respect them a lot but I just have a new opinion that will be hard to shake off). I have been jobless as I haven't say yes to the job offer (wait, is that count?). I broke my camera that contribute to my laziness to post on my blog. I gained weight (Damn!!) and still trying to lose them. One of my best friend passed away in June. I missed my flight back home in July and it cost me quite amount of money.
But after all that I can say proudly that I have no regret. Not even once. Okay I felt bad, a lot. I remember crying in the airport because I missed the flight and I felt horrible. My brain kept playing the "if only" scenario in my mind when I was in the airport, you know the type of scenario that if you had done it you would not be in that mess. at the end of the day, I can say I regret nothing.
I won't start with the BS of "New year new me" kinda thing, I mean I don't even make resolution. I just need to be better that's all. But still the old me in heart. With all the pessimist and optimist side, the bitter and happy go lucky part.
Last I hope you all be the better version of your true self this year. Without any mask and attempt to impress people that you have to fake yourself. Just be you and it's all good.
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